Active Curvy Lady

Over the weekend, on Saturday, I competed in the first tournament of the 2015-2016 tournament year.  ATA tournament years are not a calendar year but go from mid-year to mid-year.  From the moment I woke up I had butterflies in my stomach.  I tried to explain to my son that this is hard for me to do.  As a curvy person doing anything physical in front of  a crowd is very nerve-wracking.  If you asked me to speak in front of hundreds of people I’d have no problem.  But doing Taekwondo in front of a small group is so much harder for me.  It all worked out.  I had a great group of ladies in my ring.  Because it was a small tournament we had color and black belts together.  They grouped us by age.  As you get older you are a bit slower so going against a 19 or 20-year-old is harder.  We had a lot of fun.  Giggles and all.  I ended up with a second place in weapons and second place in sparring.   It took half the ride home for the butterflies to finally go away.  I know they will always be there but as I do more tournaments maybe there will be fewer.

This is my first post to this so I will keep it simple.  I am looking forward to sharing experiences with anyone who reads this of the ups and downs of being a curvy lady in a society that frowns upon being curvy.  I have been curvy all my life and have finally come to the realization that I must be healthy first, which means being active and trying to be healthy.  Every time I lose weight all the pounds I lose seem to find me again and they bring along some friends. 🙂 Today I am at my heaviest weight.  I want to lose weight don’t get me wrong, but what I’ve finally realized is that I have to change my lifestyle and then maybe my body will change with me.   I am very lucky I don’t have any of the health issues that go along with being morbidly obese.  However, over the years I know the physical damage being done to my body because of the excess weight.  My knees definitely feel it.  I know that being a size 8, 10, 12 is not for me.  I’d be happy with a 16 or 18.  I just want to be healthy and I know there will be curves on my body and I’m ok with that.